2020, has been, well... not great. I try to keep bad language to a minimum in these posts, which makes describing 2020 kind of tricky. Suffice it to say, we have all had better years.
Usually a blog post like this will say something like "but you should be thankful for what you have" or "every day is a blessing," but that's not really my style. Honestly, I find platitudes like that kind of patronising. There's a very real chance that you are finishing 2020 with less than you started it with, and to say every day has been a blessing this year is just a flat out lie. Maybe you lost your job. Maybe the business you've put your heart and soul into is struggling and you don't know if you'll last out the year. Maybe you're one of the really unlucky ones and you have lost someone to Covid-19. There are countless reasons why you might not be ok, and that's ok.
I really want to reiterate that: it's ok to not be ok.
Having needs doesn't make you needy, wanting something good for yourself doesn't make you selfish, and needing help doesn't make you helpless. Being upset or scared or frustrated is a perfectly natural, rational and acceptable state of being at the moment. It just shows you care.
But you are not alone. There are, what, like 8 billion people in the world? I can promise you that at least one of them is thinking about you. One of my closest friends in the entire world lives quite literally on the opposite side of the globe, and we communicate almost entirely through sharing memes. As far as I'm concerned, there is no truer expression of friendship than when my friend sees something stupid on the internet and it reminds him of me, so he reaches out to me with it. I guarantee someone out there is thinking the same for you. 2020 didn't take that away from you. You can still love and be loved, care and be cared for.
So pick up the phone. Send a meme. Zoom call someone. Do something to validate that you are not alone in a world of individuals, but part of a team of like-minded souls who watch out for each other. I know that if you do then whoever you reach out to will appreciate it just as much as you would (not your ex, though; there was a reason you left that guy).
I know it's hard just now, but I know you'll get through it. How do I know? Because I'm going through the exact same thing and I know that if I can get through it then so can you. Soon it'll all be just a bad memory so keep your head up and keep going.
Oh, and come stay in one of our apartments. They're great.